Head vs Heart

I don’t need this now

And I’ll say it again

If yesterday was tomorrow

Then we wouldn’t have to end

But you laid out your hand

And you asked me to stay

Still knowing the holes in our foundation

We’re not ever going away

We met back in that summer

Sweat dripped off our back

Pavement too hot to walk on

Struggling to remain in tact

We spent moonlit nights

Staring at stars we couldn’t even see

Just focused on the moment

And the time just for you and me

Everything seemed so still

Then you ripped that all away

The reasons I had left for living

Got stuffed inside your suitcase

Please, please tell me how

How I go from here

My smile and my hope

Have suddenly disappeared

You brought me so much light

Now it has turned to dust

My only working future

Now so quickly flushed

Now I see your instagram

You’re with your friends

You’re with your fam

Now could you tell me please

Do you see me as well

Because I feel so absent

As my emotions only swell

I just need one more call

Even just one more smile

Even just text an emoji

Just to soften this trial

Of my head versus heart

I wish you never left

But I guess that is what I get

For letting you so close to my chest

Please, please tell me how

How I go from here

My smile and my hope

Have suddenly disappeared

You brought me so much light

Now it has turned to dust

My only working future

Now so quickly flushed