Dealer of Shadows

Caught in the haze, he's always near

Brings me visions, masks my fears

Medicine or poison, it's hard to tell

In his shadow, I dwell

He walks the line, both friend and foe

Offers his hand, I never say no

What’s real, what’s dream, it’s all blurred

His voice, my only word

He’s the dealer, he’s the key

To the chaos inside of me

Laughing in the dark, tears in his eyes

In his world, I’ll survive

My dealer, my shadow

Pulls me back from the unknown

Keeps me afloat in the midnight glow

Without you, I might drown

My dealer, my ghost

In your grip, I lose control

You’re the fire, you’re the ice

Keeping me alive

Memory’s a flicker, a fleeting flame

Your drugs erase the pain

Sweet illusion, bitter truth

The fine line of my youth

He’s the king, I’m the pawn

Without his crown, I’m gone

In his grip, I find my peace

Or my release

My dealer, my shadow

Pulls me back from the unknown

Keeps me afloat in the midnight glow

Without you, I might drown

My dealer, my ghost

In your grip, I lose control

You’re the fire, you’re the ice

Keeping me alive

Sometimes I wonder who I’d be

Without your remedy

But I fear the silence, the emptiness

Your touch, my weakness

So I’ll keep trusting, keep believing

Even if it’s deceiving

You’re my healer, my curse, my truth

My drug dealer, my proof