The love I know

Thinking I knew but I was only just a kid

I didn’t really know what true love really is

Maybe it was beatings or maybe it was rape

Maybe it was having holes in my heart agape

It could’ve been the verbal words you use to shout

While I sat in the corner trying not to cry and pout

I thought that’s what love was until I grew up

That’s probably why to this day I just don’t give a fuck

Love can be evil or it can be kind

It can be easy or really hard to find

Once you have it, it’s hard to let it go

But sometimes you need to in order to grow

I’m finally older now, discovering myself

I’m not that little girl who used to be by herself

But I find myself in the same place time and time again

Thought things would be different from how they were back then

Everything was fun until I was used and abused

I’m such fool because I trusted you

Now here I am in a corner scared and afraid

Really wishing someone would come to my aid

Love can be evil or it can be kind

It can be easy or really hard to find

Once you have it, it’s hard to let it go

But sometimes you need to in order to grow

I wanna move on and let love do its thing

But I’m scared of what the future has to bring

I’m not saying I give up and maybe that makes me dumb

I’m just tired of this feeling that they call numb

So I’ll open up my heart one last time

Hoping for no betrayal from my partner in crime

If it happens again maybe this time there won’t be a bruise

Love might not work for me but maybe it will for you

Love can be evil or it can be kind

It can be easy or really hard to find

Once you have it, it’s hard to let it go

But sometimes you need to in order to grow

I gotta big heart and baby that’s not my fault

Feelings make this seem like the world comes to a halt

I was born like this I can’t change who I am

But that doesn’t matter y’all just don’t give a damn

I’m trying to love and to be loved back

Starting to lose hope with how all these men act

Damned if you do and damned if you don’t

Love can work for you but for me it probably won’t

Love can be evil or it can be kind

It can be easy or really hard to find

Once you have it, it’s hard to let it go

But sometimes you need to in order to grow

In order to grow you gotta let it go

In order to grow you gotta let it go