Yes I’m breathing but am I really alive?
Honestly I’m struggling just to survive
I’ve hit rock bottom once again
This darkness welcomes me like an old friend
I’m in a crowded room but feel so alone
I don’t know if I can do this on my own
Minutes feel like hours and hours feel like years
I’ve cried till I’m sick and I’ve ran out of tears
This depression I have is growing severe
Seems like the help I need is nowhere near
Really need someone to pick up the phone
This pain that I have cuts deep to the bone
I don’t mean to bore you with my sob story
But it feels like I’m living in purgatory
A better me is what I’m working towards
But I’m watching everyone around me move forward
While I feel like I’m falling so far behind
My body is breaking down and so is my mind
I lay in bed every night wishing I wasn’t alive
Wondering if I’ll be around to see twenty-five
Hoping that tomorrow will be a better day
Wishing for color cause right now all I see is gray
This depression I have is growing severe
Seems like the help I need is nowhere near
Really need someone to pick up the phone
This pain that I have cuts deep to the bone
I don’t mean to bore you with my sob story
But it feels like I’m living in purgatory
Wearing a smile that never reaches my eyes
I can’t believe so many people believe these lies
Reaching out to a hotline I have no faith in
Thinking I should get on my knees and start prayin’
Staring in the mirror hating my reflection
This sadness that I have is spreading like an infection
Not sure what to do but I hope it all comes to show
Cause living this life feels like waiting on death row
This depression I have is growing severe
Seems like the help I need is nowhere near
Really need someone to pick up the phone
This pain that I have cuts deep to the bone
I don’t mean to bore you with my sob story
But it feels like I’m living in purgatory
(I’m living in purgatory)
jasminicore
