Feel again

We dream about the day when things will finally change why does pain remain the same why can’t I sleep my eyes are fully closed my thoughts race unopposed how am I suppose to see the point in my existence I’m stuck with persistent thoughts of selfish resistance no coping mechanisms can fix my negative feelings so I must fight just to breathe I cry another day can’t you see it in my face this space takes over deep to my core I leave just to stay I speak just to behave I know I don’t wanna be here anymore so tell me why must I go on how can I hold on my bodies feeling numb take me away I want to fly into the sunset and feel as if I’m not really upset so maybe I can dream a million dreams again and again and I feel as if it’s the end someone reel me back in to the love I fall apart at times my mind seems to rewind the climb feels so sublime I may never reach the top I’ll try to fight the void and I’ll live to find my voice I know my destiny is deeper than this I’m not tired I’m not upset I’m not composed I’m not relaxed I’m here so I’ll remain until the cold is melted away and I can finally feel again I just want to feel again