dear jesus my holy god, my saviour, my protector
thank you for blessing me with food to eat
I am grateful to you
I am humble and I want to feel your blessing
Of your presence
Please put yourself all around
Into everything
I am
Into my food
Into my heart
please help me surrender to your will
To be first
To be still
Go slowly you say my child
Be cautious but wise
You help me when I feel my OCD in my mind
Telling me satan will be done
Satan narcissistic use of parasitic
Looping enslaving catastrophic thinking
you are here
you are there
You are with me through my fears
You calm my entangled need
People pleasing them all
Learned helplessly captive to every thought
Manifesting against your ways
You calm my energy
thank you for being the first and last god over my moments
Before sleep
upon waking
when I go to eat
You want to be who I think about
You are a jealous god
because you want what is pure
You want what is good for me
Not what is happening for me to always have to be
Good for me
Because good doesn't mean
You stop loving me through life
But they you will make your good ways
Surpass all my understanding
And control how and if the trials can destroy me
For you have already commanded over everyone
To remember
You are here with me
no weapon forged against me shall prosper
You are my god and I surrender this energy of all I do
To you
in the name of the father, son and the holy spirit
amen