The Monster I’ve Become

I had a drink or two

And crossed a line I knew

I closed my eyes

Believed my lies

Lost the way I went

With one sip my will was bent

It took one step to fall

Now I have to crawl

Goodbye sobriety

Goodbye recovery

What I did

Was ridiculous

I built up my shame

With bricks of my blame

I feel empty, wasted

I'm lost and faded

Still asking myself, what I've done

In the mirror I see the monster I've become

I can't see myself in the mirror

Only a shadow

Promises spoken

Still I end up broken

Goodbye sobriety

Goodbye recovery

What I did

Was ridiculous

I built up my shame

With bricks of my blame

I ripped open my scars

Going back to the bars

I'm Breaking inside

Just want to hide

Goodbye sobriety

Goodbye recovery

What I did

Was ridiculous

I built up my shame

With bricks of my blame

Drinking seems to be a part of me

Can I let the bottle fall

Or will I take it to my grave