Suffocating

[slow melodic dark tones.]
[verse]
Am I still here?  is any of this real?
When did I create this tear that won't heal?
You won't even say hello, or listen to my cries.
what did I do to create your lies?
I want so badly to hate you.
And you know that I should.
I should curse you, berate you.
With the pain you left me, of course I could.
But the truth is I still can't breathe.
You stole the air the day you decided to leave.
[chorus]
now I'm suffocating.
every morning, when I struggle to open my eyes.
I used to role over and smile, now I hear the echo of my cries.
every ray of sun, every drop of rain, every shadow in the evening, it all holds my pain.
I can't remember how to catch my breath, except to inhale you in despair 
We used to run away from death, now I'm always gasping for air.
I'm suffocating 
[verse]
I don't understand.  why am I hear all alone?
sitting in an empty room , staring at a phone.
Other girls come and go.  But there's nothing that I can do .
I'm cursed to live the rest of my life, forever missing you.
Every night when I turn out the lights , and lay down to end another day
your pillows still empty devoid of all your air that you took away.
chorus]
now I'm suffocating.
every morning, when I struggle to open my eyes.
I used to role over and smile, now I hear the echo of my cries.
every ray of sun, every drop of rain, every shadow in the evening, it all holds my pain.
I can't remember how to catch my breath, except to inhale you in despair 
We used to run away from death, now I'm always gasping for air.
I'm suffocating 
[bridge]
let me breathe again.
baby you know I can't live without you.
let me breathe again.
I'm suffocating.
exhaling, with no inhaling.
let me breathe.
let me breathe.
let me breathe.

indie rock.  dark melody., male