Behind My Smile

No one sees the pain I hide behind my eyes

You don't see the hurt you cause with all your lies

The years roll by every day I want to die

But still I hide the tears I cry

Paint a smile on my face and just get on with my day

No one knows it's such a struggle just to get through a day

No one sees the hurt and pain but I get through in my own way.

I am screaming on the inside I don't want to stay

Silent tears run down my face

Because I know there is no way

The only time it eases is when my mind is still with sleep

But even then I know that my eyes are wet they weep.

When I feel worn down and weary when I have lost all hope

When the days are so bad and I don't know how to cope

Do you ever stop and think of how you ruin my life

Do you know your words are sharp they cut into me like a knife

The days are bleak and I feel weak but no one ever knows

Once I am home it starts again all behind a closed door

I am screaming on the inside I don't want to stay

Silent tears run down my face

Because I know there is no way

The only time it eases is when my mind is still with sleep

But even then I know that my eyes are wet they weep.

I hide behind my smile and no one knows the pain

No one sees the tears always walking in the rain

I pray for the darkness I pray for life to still

I used to pray for happiness it's a bitter pill