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## Verse 1
Tired of all this pain I've caused myself
Tired of these bullshit excuses I make
Tired of putting off what matters most
But motivation's something I can't fake
Tired of frustration, tired of doubt
Tired of wishing someone would help out
The way I act now, I fucking hate myself
This ain't me—I swear—it's just a disguise
## Chorus
I've let the old me go
Taken over by alter egos
Shaped by other people, now I'm numb
When I look in the mirror
I don't know who I've become
## Verse 2
Where's that inner child with dreams so bright? *(where am I?)*
Somewhere along the way I lost the fight
Neglected the death of who I should be *(sorry)*
Took his life away, mama's baby boy
No one would notice a cheap toy in his place
I can't stop regretting what I've done
Decisions I made when I was young
If I could rewind, I'd tell myself:
## Bridge 1
Don't let desire consume your goddamn soul
It'll tear you apart from the inside out
Rip your friends away, lock you in a cage
Steal your breath until you fade *(oxygen, she took away)*
In the end you'll find she never gave a shit
Quit giving pieces of yourself away
End up hollow, just a shadow of yourself
I underestimated what self-love was worth
## Verse 3
Hard to see the line between love and lust
Lost myself after the first embrace
Thought infatuation had to be love
No time to think, you seemed so perfect
But you wanted more than just me
And I couldn't bear it, couldn't face
The thought of ending all I knew
Twenty years gone, still running through my mind *(running running running)*
## Bridge 2
I can't blame you for what we went through
I was selfish, confused, and so were you *(yeah you too, shit..)*
Too young to see that I played the fool
But the difference was, I meant it true
Took love seriously, I still do *(really do)*
When I said "I love you," it wasn't light
## Verse 4
Tears have shown me what I should have known:
You can love someone with all you've got
Feels like fucking dying when it's not returned *(unrequited)*
Can't force love back—it's there or it's not *(it's not)*
Now love feels like a burden I can't bear
Eyes full of tears, soul laid bare
## Verse 5
This bed I've made, don't want to lie alone
If the day ever comes that I have to go
Just know it was killing me being unable to hold you
Like I used to do
Finding comfort in the things we went through
If I died would it kill you too?
'Cause baby I would've traded the whole damn world for you
Yet I'm here alone wishing things were still like they used to be
## Final Chorus
I've let the old me go *(oh)*
Taken over by alter egos
Shaped by other people, *(oh, oh)* now I'm numb
When I look in the mirror
I don't know who I've become
Now this pain I wear weighs me down
Can't stand this shit, just who am I now?
## Final Chorus
I've let the old me go *(oh)*
Taken over by alter egos
Shaped by other people, *(oh, oh)* now I'm numb
When I look in the mirror
I don't know who I've become
Now this pain I wear weighs me down
Can't stand this shit, just who am I now?
[False end]
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##freestyle
check it—
Started from the bottom of my own damn mind
Left pieces of myself I'll never find
Used to be somebody, now I'm undefined
Lost in the static of a heart declined
They say time heals but the scars still show
Every mirror crack reminds me what I know
That the person that I was had to let go
Now I'm spitting truth through the pain I sow
Love came fast like a hurricane wind
Thought forever meant forever but it had to end
Now I'm picking up the pieces, trying to transcend
All the broken promises I can't defend
Who am I when the lights go dim?
When the crowd goes quiet and the hope grows thin?
Just a shadow boxing with the voice within
Trying to find salvation in the discipline
This freestyle's for the nights I couldn't sleep
For the promises I couldn't keep
For the love that cut me way too deep
Now I'm climbing out this hole so steep
Mirror, mirror on the wall
Show me who I was before the fall
Before I gave my everything, lost it all
Now I'm standing here, back against the wall
But I'm still here, still breathing, still alive
Through the pain and all the tears I've cried
Maybe broken's just another way to shine
This freestyle's proof that I'm still mine
## Final Chorus
I've let the old me go *(oh)*
Taken over by alter egos
Shaped by other people, *(oh, oh)* now I'm numb
When I look in the mirror
I don't know who I've become
Now this pain I wear weighs me down
Can't stand this shit, just who am I now?[fade out harmoniously]
Details
GeneratedJun 25, 2025
Duration5:59
Style
rap, trap,hip hop, house,trance,house ethereal,bittersweet, nostalgic,lo-fi,R&B,experimental underground rap, post-disco
Credits
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WORLDPATTERNZ
WORLDPATTERNZModelAria v4
