## Verse 1
Tired of all this pain I've caused myself
Tired of these bullshit excuses I make
Tired of putting off what matters most
But motivation's something I can't fake
Tired of frustration, tired of doubt
Tired of wishing someone would help out
The way I act now, I fucking hate myself
This ain't me—I swear—it's just a disguise
## Chorus
I've let the old me go
Taken over by alter egos
Shaped by other people, now I'm numb
When I look in the mirror
I don't know who I've become
## Verse 2
Where's that inner child with dreams so bright? *(where am I?)*
Somewhere along the way I lost the fight
Neglected the death of who I should be *(sorry)*
Took his life away, mama's baby boy
No one would notice a cheap toy in his place
I can't stop regretting what I've done
Decisions I made when I was young
If I could rewind, I'd tell myself:
## Bridge 1
Don't let desire consume your goddamn soul
It'll tear you apart from the inside out
Rip your friends away, lock you in a cage
Steal your breath until you fade *(oxygen, she took away)*
In the end you'll find she never gave a shit
Quit giving pieces of yourself away
End up hollow, just a shadow of yourself
I underestimated what self-love was worth
## Verse 3
Hard to see the line between love and lust
Lost myself after the first embrace
Thought infatuation had to be love
No time to think, you seemed so perfect
But you wanted more than just me
And I couldn't bear it, couldn't face
The thought of ending all I knew
Twenty years gone, still running through my mind *(running running running)*
## Bridge 2
I can't blame you for what we went through
I was selfish, confused, and so were you *(yeah you too, shit..)*
Too young to see that I played the fool
But the difference was, I meant it true
Took love seriously, I still do *(really do)*
When I said "I love you," it wasn't light
## Verse 4
Tears have shown me what I should have known:
You can love someone with all you've got
Feels like fucking dying when it's not returned *(unrequited)*
Can't force love back—it's there or it's not *(it's not)*
Now love feels like a burden I can't bear
Eyes full of tears, soul laid bare
## Verse 5
This bed I've made, don't want to lie alone
If the day ever comes that I have to go
Just know it was killing me being unable to hold you
Like I used to do
Finding comfort in the things we went through
If I died would it kill you too?
'Cause baby I would've traded the whole damn world for you
Yet I'm here alone wishing things were still like they used to be
## Final Chorus
I've let the old me go *(oh)*
Taken over by alter egos
Shaped by other people, *(oh, oh)* now I'm numb
When I look in the mirror
I don't know who I've become
Now this pain I wear weighs me down
Can't stand this shit, just who am I now?
WORLDPATTERNZ
