You never felt true pain until you realized the lady that gave birth to you didn’t have a ounce of love in their heart for you. I am in recovery mode, ain’t seeking validation from anyone no more. So focus on myself finally giving myself the love I once crave from others. Self discipline ain’t losing control. A retired crashed, I stop giving my energy out to people that don’t deserve it. My silence hitting harder than a thunder storm, once taking for granted now I am thousands of miles away. Just another distant memory. I stop fighting internal battles I am on healing journey and I am finding myself.