Misunderstood on purpose

I never know it hurts until I was crying for my lover that feels like a stranger.I thought we were meant for each other but time tells a different story. I heal in silence because my cries are so loud.

You never really know how much your games truly affect me. If I tell you I love you would you go or would I have to wait for another life time to get a response? If I let you see my depth I hope you don’t drown in it. The games you play took a toll on me. Even though I love you I got to let you go for my own sanity. I need to put myself first, I got feelings too you never really care for me I was never your first option only your back up plan. I filled the void when the one you love the most is giving your love away. Time will heal my pain, going forward I will choose myself.