I've floated with death so long…
So long… so fuckin' long…
[Verse 1]
I been hard as hell on this body
Chasin' dreams and hobbies till they haunt me
Stringin' lines just to find my normal
But normal ghosted, left me formal — funeral formal
What the fuck
I don't know how I'd even judge
This pile of shit stacked high enough to touch the grudge
What the fuck
Dude… what the fuck
[Pre-Chorus – building tension, odd time signature creeping in]
Now my baggage just heavy enough to weigh me down
While you got yourself all made up, shinin' in the crown
Beautiful to watch a person grow
From in between the sidewalks, cracks where the real ones know
[Chorus – heavy drop, Doobie flow over Tool groove]
The way the breeze just touches the sky
Makes me stop and wonder why
Who in the hell did I fuck it up?
Gave it my all, now it's never enough
Is it too late to fix this wreck?
Or just walk away with the scrapes from the fall?
The unknowing… the no certainty…
It's all in my head again
Switch me out, bring me back in
[Verse 2 – faster, more aggressive, almost spoken-word rage]
I'm silent — only when I'm silent
Did I become worth somethin' to eyes that lost me in the violence
Use me baby, I told you use me
For all of everything I'd ever let you see
But that's done, you took and took
Bit the hand while you shook
Where's the respect when you forget the source?
Whose glass were you always set to sit on course?
[Bridge – slow, atmospheric breakdown, echoing Tool spirituality]
Hopefully you never woulda seen
Anything other than this blessing in disguise
A scar that breathes, a wound that screams
You'll never forget me…
You'll never forget me…
[Final Chorus – layered vocals, building to cathartic scream]
Floatin' with death so long
So long… so fuckin' long
The unknowing, the no certainty
It's all in my head again
Switch me out… bring me back around
Only when I'm silent
Did I become worth the crown
Use me… use me…
But that's done
That's done
That's fuckin' done
[Outro – fading reverb, single clean guitar note hanging]
You'll never forget me…
Blessing… in… disguise…
ReAsh
