[Intro]
I still dream of your scent on my torn shirt,
I wake up and search for you in the sheet that no longer warms.
I want to look into your eyes and tear my throat apart
telling you I love you while I kneel in the storm.
I clung to the past like someone clinging to the edge,
I let the years cut my hands,
and the mere idea of not being your destiny
turned me into a walking corpse inside for years.[Pre-chorus]
I was afraid and stayed silent,
I hid like a thief from my own life,
I preferred to invent an ending without goodbye
than to risk you telling me you were no longer mine.
[Chorus]
Your smile was my religion and I profaned it,
your eyes my sky and I myself extinguished them.
When you sang, you only looked at me
and now I sing alone and no one looks at me like that.
That song that was ours
is the knife I slowly stab myself with every night
to keep feeling that something of yours touches me.
[Verse 2]
When I cried, you were the only port,
you dried my tears with your velvet voice,
you stayed until I fell asleep dead
and left me alive only to die again the next day.
You took my hand so many times
and I never squeezed hard
for fear that you'd discover
I trembled from loving you until it hurt.
[Bridge – broken voice]
And now I pay with blood for every second of silence,
I live repeating your name like a prayer that does no good.
I lost you for being a coward, I lost you for being a child,
I lost you and I'm still here pretending to breathe.[Final Chorus – almost breathless]
Let me scream that I never stopped loving you,
even if you now have another hand to dry your tears.
Let me tell you that I die every night
remembering how I let you go because I didn't know how to hold you.
This distance that I myself marked
is the wound that will never close,
because I opened it with my own hands
the day I was afraid of losing you
and ended up losing you forever.
[Outro – a whisper that fades away]
I miss you…
I miss you…
I miss you so much
that I no longer have voice
or life
or anything left.
Forgive me.
Or forget me.
But don't let me keep
living dead.
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