Overthinking Burns

Verse 1
Loneliness makes me overthink
My mind won't stop creating
Moments that never happened
I'm scared of myself
And what I might imagine  
Pre-Chorus
How is it possible I think of you
When you were more than just a friend to me?
I never meant to build those moments with you
It's only me who put up this wall
Between us two, you're just a friend
Nothing more than a simple friend  
Chorus
But why? I think of you every day
Wondering if you're okay
How can I smile at the phone
When you send me a message?
What happened to me, when did I change direction?  
Verse 2
You and I aren't possible, you and I aren't real
Nothing between us should ever happen
I don't know what you think of me, but I want
Our friendship to last forever  I wake up and you're already in my head
Like an echo I don't want to silence
Every smile you send me tears me down a little more
And I hate myself for not being able to stop  Pre-Chorus 2
I keep quiet, pretend nothing's wrong
That your laugh is just friendly, nothing more
But deep down I know I'm lying badly
And this secret is gonna burn me alive  
Chorus (variation)
Why do I keep daydreaming about you?
Imagining kisses that will never come
I'm afraid to say it and ruin everything
But even more afraid to stay silent and explode  Bridge
Maybe one day courage will win
Or maybe time will teach me to forget
But today I can only write you in songs
What I never dare to confess  
Outro / Final Chorus (softer, almost whispered)
You and I aren't possible… I repeat it a thousand times
But my heart doesn't understand reasons
It just beats your name in silence
And it asks me… what if?
What if one day…?

Indie pop / Emotional pop ballad (with possible alternative R&B or chill pop influences), male