"I'm Amazing and I Know It!"
I knew that you were different from the first time we had met.
You were starring in my dreams at night; we shared days I can’t forget.
Sooner than I thought I would, I started rearranging life –
Visualizing a future where perhaps I’d be your wife.
We had fun just being together, laughing from morning till night.
It was amazing when our marathon dates lasted through morning light.
If you said you’d be too busy at times, I stood by, simply waiting.
While secretly making plans of my own to move us way past dating…
Yet days turned into months – then years – we never walked that aisle.
Skillfully you had a special way of always making me smile.
You kept me bound right to your side without some rope to spare
But you only showed me tenderness when you felt I didn’t care.
Was that just so you’d reign me in? Tethered to your side?
You had your rules and made it clear I always should abide.
You never looked at me as real… I AM a worthy person!
But these past years I’ve learned so well I’m not your perfect version.
I've always tried to please you - tried to run my life your way.
Why wouldn’t you ever let me speak? I had so much to say!
I wish you'd understand how much you killed my self-esteem...
If I tried to speak my mind you took my words to the extreme.
I need to discover who I am and all that’s in my heart
Without interference from anyone who won't care if we're apart.
I'm old enough to need the calm that comes from being wise
And do away with drama that keeps me wearing a disguise.
I need a few belongings, my car - some money too
To start out fresh - a brand new life! And to myself be true.
I don't need much - just honesty, sincerity and faith
To find the happiness in my heart that's always had to wait.
We grew apart that's really it. But you're waiting for a face -
That won't return - forever gone - and one you can't replace.
I tried my best, I always did. I worked, I laughed, I played.
But the connection is no longer here: if it were, I would have stayed.
If I said I'm sorry that's nothing you want to hear.
And when I walk away I know we each won't shed a tear.
I'm not angry or hurt or bitter, just ready to be free
To look deep inside my heart and soul and love the newest Me!
Psychedelic_Sun
