Fear Says

I come here to vent…

I don’t mean to upset…

Just got a lot going on in my head…

I come here to vent, don’t mean disrespect

Just got a lot of weight sitting on my chest

Smoking gun in my hand but it never goes off

Every shot that it takes somehow misses the mark

Fighting my final stand, least that’s what it feels like

Fear keeps talking every single night

Telling me I’m not ready for what’s next

Telling me every blessing’s something I’ll neglect

Head spinning, losing or winning?

Every day feels like I’m barely beginning

Funny that I write when I’m fighting my sin

If that tells you anything about how I’ve been

Hate myself and hate my life

Even though I’m thankful every night

Trying to hold on, trying to be alright

Trying to find peace in my own mind

And I know what Fear wants me to say…

He wants me to believe I’m the same man I was yesterday

Back to the old me… (old meee)

Back when everything was falling apart

Back when every bad thought found a home

And made itself comfortable inside my heart

But I see the light at the end of the tunnel

Even if it’s hard to believe

Fear keeps saying he’s here to stay…

But I’m starting to doubt what he tells me

Want to pop the question but I’m scared to death

Thinking ‘bout forever while I hold my breath

Scared to commit, scared to mess it all up

Even though I know she’s the one I love

Scared to stay, scared to go

Comfortable being all alone

But I don’t wanna be alone no more

Don’t wanna spend my life scrolling through my phone

I see the future and it scares me sometimes

Bills piling up while I’m trying to climb

Trying to be a man worth following

While still figuring out what’s going on inside

And every time I start believing again…

Fear reminds me where I’ve been

Back to the old me… (old meee)

Back when everything was falling apart

Back when every bad thought found a home

And made itself comfortable inside my heart

But I see the light at the end of the tunnel

Even if it’s hard to believe

Fear keeps saying he’s here to stay…

But I’m starting to doubt what he tells me

Fear says I’ll never change

Fear says I’ll always break

Fear says every good thing in my life

Is one mistake away

Fear says I’m not enough

Fear says I should give up

Fear says a lot of things…

Back to the old me…..

Maybe that’s what Fear wants to see

Maybe he’d love for me to stop fighting

And hand him everything

But I see the light at the end of the tunnel

And it’s getting closer every day

Fear keeps saying he’s here forever…

But this time I believe him…