Ball and chain

somewhere along the way i lost my mental health
i took a leap of faith but it wasnt in myself
now i know i need some help
believing in me
Sobered up and split my personalities
Yet the one who does the drugs copes better with reality,
 it saddens me,
knowing where im going isnt ever after happily

ill relapse, 
perhaps
and be driven mad by the voice 
inside of me, dissappointed by the void i left it in quietly.


divided by the lies i said to find the high that killed the voice driving me.
Motivated just take the wheel and deviate, merge the lane and fly away.
I'm the ball and its the chain, he's the one who wants to run, he's the one who wants to get away.
Run from this, or run from that, you can't escape a feeling when it crawls right through your back.
its in my spine, nervous as the system and its rampant in my mind.
Therapist said it gets easier but it always taking time.
Time away from friends time away from family
Man addiction's Satans masterpiece
Taking action out of guilt just to feel like ive climbed another hill back to me

blues, soul, r&b