A Happy Place

Put myself on a hill to,

find my happy place

not because I’m above you,

I’m just reaching out to space

Its a spot with no air,

and they said I'd suffocate

But the weight in my mind grows heavy,

and my heart still aches for grace

So I sing you all a love song

just to make it through the day

And when the night starts crawling,

I pray the dark stays far away

All my inhibitions

keep my footsteps straight

But I’m walking through a world

that’s forgotten how to wait

They try to name my chaos,

say they understand the brain

Call me something different

like divergence is a stain

Tried to hand me healing

in a bottle with my name

But acting like I’m “normal”

never eased the ache I claim

And that’s why I keep climbing,

why I reach beyond the haze

Searching for a whisper

that can cut through all this pain

Found my peace in the quiet grace

felt a steady hand begin to lift my shame

Never felt okay till I spoke His name

same old world, but it’s colored by His flame

So let’s breathe deep and release this pain

Put myself on a hill to,

find my happy place

not because I’m above you,

I’m just reaching out to space

Its a spot with no air,

and they said I'd suffocate

But the weight in my mind grows heavy,

and my heart still aches for grace

So I sing you all a love song

just to make it through the day

And when the night starts crawling,

I pray the dark stays far away

The stories we were raised on

were built on empty space

Trying to explain the cosmos

without a hint of faith

And we all chase our comfort

in the sweetest, quickest ways

But the hunger never leaves us

when we’re feeding on escape

We can tear down every structure

but the truth still holds its place

I’ve been reaching for the heavens

hoping you might feel that grace

I’ve been climbing through the silence

with a heart that’s worn and frayed

But the higher that I wander

the less I feel afraid

There’s a whisper in the stillness

like a lantern in the rain

And it tells me I’m not broken,

just becoming something changed

So if you ever feel the darkness

pull you farther from your name

You can meet me on that hill

where the air is thin with grace

We can sit inside the quiet,

let the trembling fall away

And I’ll reach my hands toward heaven,

hoping you might do the same