Tired

“Not Tired Enough” (Jessie Murph–style)

Verse 1

I’m tired of watchin’ your mood swing

Like it’s my job to keep you calm

Tired of sayin’ “it’s not that bad”

With makeup on my palms

I’m tired of lovin’ apologies

More than I love myself

But somehow I’m still here tonight

Lyin’ to everybody else

Pre-Chorus

I know every reason I should go

I can list ‘em like scars

But knowin’ ain’t the same as leavin’

When you love who you are

Chorus

I’m tired of the abuse, yeah, tired of the pain

Tired of walkin’ on glass, callin’ it love anyway

I’m tired of the fear, tired of the tears

Tired of beggin’ you to be who you swear you are

But I guess I’m not tired enough to leave you

Just tired enough to fall apart

Verse 2

I’m tired of hopin’ this time’s different

Tired of meanin’ every goodbye

Tired of hearin’ “baby, I’ll change”

Like that’s supposed to make it right

I’m tired of missin’ the old you

Or maybe who I thought you were

Tired of hurtin’ in silence

While I say I’m sure

Pre-Chorus

Everyone says I deserve better

Like that fixes what’s broke

But love don’t listen to logic

It just tightens the rope

Chorus

I’m tired of the abuse, tired of the shame

Tired of defendin’ you when they say your name

I’m tired of the nights I don’t feel safe

Tired of prayin’ you don’t lose control

But I guess I’m not tired enough to leave you

Just tired of carryin’ it all alone

Bridge

I know one day this’ll kill me

Or I’ll finally walk away

But right now I’m stuck in between

Survivin’ another day

I hate that love still sounds like you

Even when you’re the reason I ache

I’m tired… but not brave enough

To make the break

Final Chorus

I’m tired of the abuse, tired of the fight

Tired of callin’ this love when it don’t feel right

I’m tired of hurtin’, tired of stayin’

Tired of losin’ pieces of who I am

But I guess I’m not tired enough to leave you

Just tired enough to know I can

Outro

One day I’ll be tired enough to go

But tonight… I’m just tired.