[Intro – soft, almost spoken]
Yeah…
I ain’t sad enough to cry
But I ain’t alive enough to feel alive either
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[Verse 1]
Wake up tired like I worked all night
But the only thing I fought was my own damn mind
Ceiling fan spinning like the thoughts in my head
Same old questions when I get outta bed
Who am I really when the lights ain’t on?
Why do I feel like I’ve been gone so long?
I show up, shake hands, say “I’m good, I’m straight”
Whole time feelin’ like I showed up late
To my own damn life, like I missed my cue
Smile so real even I think it’s true
Practice that laugh, keep it locked in place
Whole world sees it — nobody sees my face
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[Hook – melodic, emotional]
I got the mask on, playin’ my role
Say I’m fine but I’m losing my soul
I’m in the room but I’m not really there
Talkin’ to people who don’t really care
I’m so tired of being tired
No fire left, no desire
I keep walkin’ like I’m strong
But I don’t feel nothin’ for so long
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[Verse 2]
Under-appreciated, understated
Overthinkin’ every word I stated
Do my best, it evaporates
Like effort only resonates in empty space
Family loves me, yeah I know that’s facts
But outside that circle? Silence talks back
I don’t need applause, don’t need the crown
Just wanna feel like I ain’t background
Ain’t suicidal, just feelin’ stuck
Like neutral gear and I’m outta luck
Even things I love don’t hit the same
Used to feel passion — now it’s just a name
Tell me why I gotta fake my grin
So nobody asks how I’ve really been
’Cause if I’m honest, I might fall through
And I don’t know who would catch me… do you?
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[Hook – bigger]
I got the mask on, playin’ my role
Say I’m fine but I’m losing my soul
Surrounded by noise, still alone
Like a ghost in a house that ain’t my home
I’m so tired of being tired
No spark left in the wire
I keep breathin’, that’s about it
Heartbeat don’t mean I feel lit
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[Bridge – stripped, almost whisper]
I don’t want pity
Don’t want sympathy
Just wanna wake up
With some energy
Just wanna feel like
This life is mine
Not just somethin’
I survive
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[Final Hook – raw, slight vocal crack]
Mask on… every damn day
Say I’m fine, let it fade away
If you see me smilin’, just know it’s skin
I’m just real damn good at pretendin’