I’m not looking back —
Not because I don’t care,
But because the past held too much despair.
My country knew my name,
But never knew my pain.
I walked through fire,
And still they asked me to smile again.
I couldn’t sleep —
Demons danced inside my chest.
I prayed for peace,
But chaos never let me rest.
I left my friends, my blood, my home,
To find a place where I could be alone.
[Pre-Chorus]
If I told you the story, you wouldn’t believe,
The church, the screams, the nights I couldn’t breathe.
He got them — but he didn’t get me.
And yet somehow, I still don’t feel free.
[Chorus]
So I had to walk away,
From the shadows that haunted my days.
From the faces that couldn’t see my pain,
From the memories that drove me insane.
I didn’t run — I rebuilt.
I didn’t forget — I healed.
This is the price I had to pay,
To find myself along the way.
[Verse 2]
I wiped my mind of everything I saw,
Suppressed the screams, the blood, the law.
Asked God why He let that man exist,
Why He let evil persist.
I believed — but I was broken.
Faith was fragile, words unspoken.
PTSD shook me to the core,
Depression knocked, I locked the door.
I started over —
New name, new life, new breath.
But the ghosts still whisper,
Even in success.
[Bridge – Spoken Word over soft piano]
Left foot, right foot — keep walking.
Don’t look back — the past is stalking.
I saw children scream, bodies fall,
I saw evil laugh and take it all.
I kept walking —
Not because I was strong,
But because staying felt so wrong.
[Final Chorus]
So I had to walk away,
From the shadows that haunted my days.
From the faces that couldn’t see my pain,
From the memories that drove me insane.
I didn’t run — I rebuilt.
I didn’t forget — I healed.
This is the price I had to pay,
To find myself along the way.
[Outro – Spoken Word]
Now I walk with purpose.
Not to escape — but to evolve.
I left everything behind,
So I could finally find peace.
