Title: “This Ain’t Holy”
[Intro – Spoken / Soft Beat Building]
They said it was love
They said it was God
But it felt like control
And it broke me
[Verse 1]
They dressed it up in scripture
But it felt like shame
Told me I was wrong
Every time I felt pain
Criticized my every move
Like grace was just a game
Told me I was “too emotional”
When I tried to explain
[Pre-Chorus]
Gaslighted in the name of truth
Manipulated in the pews
Mood swings, cold stares
Love withdrawn like it’s a dare
[Chorus]
This ain’t holy — it’s abuse in disguise
You don’t have to stay, don’t believe the lies
If they crush your soul to keep control
That’s not God — that’s just a role
This ain’t holy — it’s fear wrapped in light
You deserve peace, you deserve to fight
For your heart, for your mind
For the healing you can find
[Verse 2]
They told me how to dress
How to speak, how to pray
But never asked me how I felt
Or why I cried every day
They punished me with silence
Withheld love like it was earned
Told me I was “rebellious”
When I finally got concerned
[Bridge – Spoken Word / Melodic Layer]
If your leader makes you feel small
If your church makes you afraid to fall
If you’re walking on eggshells just to belong
Then maybe that place is wrong
[Final Chorus]
This ain’t holy — it’s abuse in disguise
You don’t have to stay, don’t believe the lies
If they crush your soul to keep control
That’s not God — that’s just a role
This ain’t holy — it’s fear wrapped in light
You deserve peace, you deserve to fight
For your heart, for your mind
For the healing you can find
[Outro – Soft Fade]
God’s not in the chains they gave
He’s in the love that sets you free
So walk away, don’t be ashamed
You’re still His — and you’re still seen
