[Verse 1]
Sink to the shower floor
Water too hot
I let it burn
Stare at the crack in the ceiling
Like it might finally say the words I can’t learn
[Pre-Chorus]
Friends say
"You’ve been so quiet"
I say
"Just tired
Long day"
They laugh
Change the subject
I bite my tongue till the taste goes gray
[Chorus]
I’m not ok
But it’s easier to play the part
To fake it anyway
I’m not ok
Got a storm in my chest and a smile on my face
I’m not ok
Can’t find the reason
Just the weight
Just the ache
I’m not ok
I’m not ok
[Verse 2]
Your sweater’s still on my chair
Haven’t moved it in a couple months
Eat cold toast over the sink
Scroll through our photos till my fingers go numb
[Pre-Chorus]
Everyone loves a clean story
A why
A when
A how to heal
I just wake up heavy
Like someone changed the gravity
Turned up the steel
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
[low vocal register]
If I say it out loud
Will you look at me strange
If I fall apart now
Will anything change
[whispered vocals]
I miss what I had
I miss who I was
Can’t name what I’ve lost
But it’s all that I’m made of
[Chorus]