Can’t hold it together

Verse 1
The weight is crushing, lungs won’t fill
Every breath feels like broken glass
I trace the cracks inside my chest
And wonder how much longer this will last
Pre-Chorus
I want to cry till the rivers run dry
I want to scream till the silence breaks
I want to give up, let the darkness take
Everything I’m too tired to fake
Chorus
I’m not falling asleep, I’m hiding from dawn
If I close my eyes the new day comes on
And I can’t face it, can’t fake it again
So I lie here awake, counting the pain
No end in sight, just endless night
I don’t think I can hold it together tonight
Verse 2
Smiling through the telephone lies
Laughing while the inside dies
They see the mask, they never see
The war that’s raging underneath
Pre-Chorus
I want to cry till my eyes bleed red
I want to scream till my throat is dead
I want to give up, crawl into bed
And never get up again
Chorus
I’m not falling asleep, I’m hiding from dawn
If I close my eyes the new day comes on
And I can’t face it, can’t fake it again
So I lie here awake, counting the pain
No end in sight, just endless night
I don’t think I can hold it together tonight
Bridge
What if tomorrow is worse than today?
What if the hurt just learns how to stay?
I’m running on empty, running on fumes
One more crack and the whole damn thing blooms
Into pieces I can’t put back
Into screams I can’t take back
Final Chorus (softer, breaking)
I’m not falling asleep… I’m begging the dark
To swallow me whole, leave no mark
’Cause I can’t face it, can’t hide it no more
The pain’s getting louder, cracking the door
No end in sight, just endless fight
I know I can’t hold it together tonight…
Outro (whispered, fading)
I want to cry…
I want to scream…
I want to give up…
Please… don’t make me start again

Male, painful song, deep pain, asking for help