[Intro: Whispers, echoing]
Step inside… the cracks of my mind
Where the light dies… and the shadows grind
I don’t wanna be… I don’t wanna be…
Feel my pulse… match the heartbeat of the dead
I’m already here… crawling inside your head
[Verse 1]
Mirror cracked, jagged grin, shadows smirk back
Hands claw the walls, heart attack in pitch black
I’m the beast I built, hands stitched from my sins
Breath reeks of venom, hate seeps through my skin
Staring down a ghost, me in the reflection
Past-life aggression, my own possession
Fangs in the soul, my name in the dirt
I don't wanna be… the one that leaves you hurt
[Chorus]
I don’t wanna be, I don’t wanna be
The shadow creeping closer when you try to breathe
I don’t wanna be, I don’t wanna be
The monster in the mirror staring back at me
I don’t wanna be, I don’t wanna be
The fear inside you that you can’t release
[Verse 2]
Horns sprout slow, crown forged from my rage
Caged by the flames, I wrote my own page
Fist through the glass, shards drip like a flood
Paint the canvas red with my own damn blood
Eyes gone hollow, swallowed by the hunger
Thunder in my chest, self-torn asunder
Every scar's a map of my darkest descent
I don’t wanna be… the one you can’t defend
I don’t wanna be… the nightmare that won’t end
[Bridge]
Chains rattling, dragging my name in the dust
I’m rust, I’m lust, I’m a soul turned to a husk
I don’t wanna be, I don’t wanna be
The storm you can’t weather… the one you can’t see
Pray for the day I can sever this tether
I don’t wanna be… the shadow forever
[Verse 3]
Voices in the dark keep chanting my mistakes
Echoes of the choices that I couldn’t unmake
Shadows stretch long, wrapping tight ‘round my spine
Dragging every secret I buried in time
Tremors in my breath, fear carved in my name
Walking through a fire made from my own flame
If redemption’s real, let it crawl through the black
I don’t wanna be… the one who turns back
I’m trying every night not to turn and attack
I don’t wanna be… the ghost you can’t unpack
[Chorus]
I don’t wanna be, I don’t wanna be
The shadow creeping closer when you try to breathe
I don’t wanna be, I don’t wanna be
The monster in the mirror staring back at me
I don’t wanna be, I don’t wanna be
The fear inside you that you can’t release
[Outro]
If the night pulls me under, don’t follow me in
I’m wrestling the darkness that grew from my sin
I don’t wanna be… I don’t wanna be…
But I’m fighting now, I’m breaking free
I’m trying to beat the demon in me.
Drozalloxx
