Maybe I'm to blame

Maybe I'm to blame for always

Being kind to others Maybe I'm to blame for blood shed as a little girl Maybe my question i asked as a child isn't who do I blame

It's who blames me

Maybe dying would be the right answer now though you once promised to give up everything dad if God would let me live

Maybe your prayer should of been let my baby stay with Gracie so they will be there when I get to were I'm going Maybe I wasn't ment to live and your prayer to god altered it all

Changing life's course and destroying my own children years later all because I wanted to eat cookies with you with my children for one more Christmas good-bye to a dad who left a long time ago though I still cry. for you like many times in life laughter just aint the same anymore the world knows now I loved my dad with out rules or stipulations my love was unconditional and it came at a price and nothing was ever worth my 3 daughters just know I gave my best to clear my daddy's name and the scars I hold aren't just on my skin their deep with in my heart like a blade cutting paper over and over again because I was fighting a battle to clear my daddy's name and uncle's so the world know are truth when I bow down and give up I didn't give all to show my dad I loved him and my uncle with all my heart forever as a said a daughters and nieces love is unconditional so keep my blue teddy bear and my box of pictures and my mommy's wedding dress and are old picture that hung on your stairs underneath your bed to remind all of a daughter you have once called cookie monster many years ago so goodbye to both my uncle and my daddy I can't fight anymore just remember you said music don't lie so find my videos and listen you'll find truth in my songs love cookie monster of my daddy's house and grandpa's and remember maybe im to blame but it wasn't i who paid off doctors that would of been uncle Jerry and Joe and it wasn't i who traced your name from a old check you wrote and then filled out the rest that too was uncle Jerry you didn't write the bad checks and I never said it was you that hurt me Maybe one day we both will fly with Gracie in someone else's clouds!