Starting over

“Starting Over”

I’m tired of giving everything I have

Just to watch somebody treat it like it’s nothing.

Tired of being the one who stays

While somebody else keeps running.

I gave my heart, I gave my trust,

I gave pieces of myself away,

And somehow I still ended up

The one who’s left to pick up the pieces.

I moved out the way for you,

Thought maybe you would finally see

Everything I sacrificed

Just to make you happy.

But you hurt me in the places

I never thought you’d reach,

And now I’m standing in the silence

Trying to find the old me.

I don’t even know where I’m supposed to start,

You left a mess inside my heart.

Everything I built came crashing down,

And now I’m the one rebuilding from the ground.

I’m starting over,

Starting from nothing again.

Trying to put my life back together

After losing more than a man.

You broke my heart,

But you didn’t break me.

I’m hurting right now,

But one day I’ll finally breathe.

I’m done begging somebody to love me right,

Done crying over somebody every night.

If walking away means finding myself,

Then baby, I’m choosing me this time.

I’m starting over.

And this time I’m starting with me.

I packed up more than just my clothes,

I packed up memories I don’t wanna hold.

Every room had a piece of us,

Every corner had a story.

But now they’re just reminders

Of the woman I used to be

Before I forgot my worth

Trying to make somebody choose me.

I don’t wanna hate you,

I just wish you would’ve loved me better.

I wish you understood

How much I was hurting underneath it all.

You made me question everything—

My heart, my worth, my mind.

And I’m tired of wondering

Why loving someone always costs me mine.

So I’m taking back my name,

Taking back my peace.

Taking back every part of me

That I gave away for free.

Maybe losing you

Is the beginning of finding me.

I’m starting over,

Starting from nothing again.

Trying to put my life back together

After losing more than a man.

You broke my heart,

But you didn’t break me.

I’m hurting right now,

But one day I’ll finally breathe.

I’m done begging somebody to love me right,

Done crying over somebody every night.

If walking away means finding myself,

Then baby, I’m choosing me this time.

I’m starting over.

And this time I’m starting with me.

I’m tired of men who say they love me

Then make me feel impossible to love.

Tired of being someone’s everything

Until they find somebody new to want.

Tired of shrinking myself

So somebody else can feel tall.

Tired of apologizing

For having feelings at all.

So take the memories.

Take the promises.

Take every “forever” you ever said.

I don’t need them anymore.

Because I’m finally learning

That being alone

Is better than being loved

In a way that destroys me.

And yeah, I’m scared.

I’m starting from zero.

I don’t know where I’ll live,

I don’t know what comes next,

I don’t know how long it’ll take

To feel like myself again.

But I know I’m leaving.

And that’s e