(Verse 1)
I go from laughing on the phone all night
To staring at my ceiling in the quiet
One week I’m the person they can’t lose
Next week I’m somebody they don’t choose
I memorize the little things they say
Like maybe if I care enough they’ll stay
But every time I start to feel secure
They slowly close the door
I hate how fast people change
How somebody can know your pain
Hold your heart inside their hands
Then act like you were never part of their plans
(Pre-Chorus)
And every “I got you” turns into distance
Every “forever” starts feeling different
I keep asking what’s wrong with me
Why nobody stays consistently
(Chorus)
How do I go from talking every second
To feeling like I never even mattered?
From being the first person on their mind
To someone they leave behind after
I’m tired of temporary love
Temporary friends
Temporary people swearing
They’ll be there till the end
Cause I give my all so easily
And people leave so carelessly
Now every time my phone goes silent
It kills a piece of me
(Verse 2)
I scroll through old messages sometimes
Read old jokes and old goodbyes
Trying to figure out the exact moment
Things changed and I didn’t notice
Maybe I care too deeply
Maybe I love too hard
Maybe people get tired of holding
All the broken parts of my heart
I’m always the one reaching out first
Always the one fighting to make it work
And when I stop trying for one second
Everybody disappears on purpose
(Pre-Chorus)
I’m scared to get attached now
Cause nothing ever stays
Everybody says they love me
Then slowly fade away
(Chorus)
How do I go from talking every second
To feeling like I never even mattered?
From being the first person on their mind
To someone they leave behind after
I’m tired of temporary love
Temporary friends
Temporary people swearing
They’ll be there till the end
Cause I give my all so easily
And people leave so carelessly
Now every time my phone goes silent
It kills a piece of me
(Bridge)
And maybe nobody notices
How much disappearing hurts
How being left over and over
Makes you question your worth
Now I overthink every message
Every change in tone
Cause I already know the feeling
Of ending up alone
(Breakdown)
It’s always the same story
Different names, same pain
People walk into my life
Then walk right out again
(Final Chorus)
How do I go from being wanted
To wondering if anybody cares?
From feeling seen for one small moment
To feeling invisible everywhere?
I keep giving people chances
Even when I know the ending
Still hoping one day somebody
Won’t get tired of pretending
Cause all I ever wanted
Was somebody who stays
Not somebody who loves me
Then disappears days later.
