I made this not only for the man I fell in love with through his deep brown eyes but through his heart and soul. You may be a man, but you’re more than a person to me. You help people without noticing. The father, the leader, the protector, but most of all the love of my life. I never thought I’d be with someone, always thought I’d look at the orange over the train tracks wondering if I’d find love. But I knew as soon as I saw you, he’s the one. Even though you play fun games and laugh I always wondered if you’d even want me looking like a zombie mother. I feel my skin rip apart while you stitch me back together. I feel like a corpse bride but end up with the ring on my finger. I feel your love with me even when I don’t hear your soothing voice. When I think of you I think of beauty, maybe I feel more of being the beast with my mind being so out of frame with the perfect painting of a red rose with thick sharp thorns. Life is terrible at times but you chose me, you chose us, you chose this. I don’t think I’d be here without you, you saved me, you inspire me, you love me, I question a lot why me? But then I remember a lot of people look at a sunset and think “who knew that girl”, but you did, you always did, I always felt you. But then I met with your eyes and felt my world crumble and grow into MY FUTURE. You gleam brighter than anyone I know and our son is lucky to have your face and heart. Your mother is such an inspiration, I hope to love you as much as she gives her life for others, but your mom will always be queen and filled with faith. Your grandma inspired millions and saved lives and continues to save mine, and I can’t forget my favorite sister in law, she’s stronger than me and I don’t know how she does it, she’s smart, beautiful, cool, amazing with fashion, if anyone’s inspired she inspires me to keep being myself and stay true to our family. I won’t keep going but the desert has been cold my love, you’re strong but I hope you know life is just as beautiful as that revelry we talk about. You mean the world to me. And I will always think of you in the orange, we will never be done because I survive for you and with you. I love you Aj, and you will always be my person of patience and peace