Dead Doll

(Verse 1)
Am I awake, or just dreaming?
I've spent few days on the couch freezing
In a blink the moon showed up and time turned to dust
Another weekend lost...
There's nothing new, yeah, I still feel blue
I'm caught between two worlds without you
Without who?
I don't miss anyone, maybe I do
All that I know it's that my mind froze
Even though I fought those... demons

(Pre-Chorus)
Nothing's relieving, hours vanishing
I can't put my finger on what I'm dealing with
Is it depression, is it protection?
Is it that in my life there's no real action
I'm stuck in a circle that's been built in a deep hole
Tell me what should I do, I feel like a dead doll

(Chorus)
'Cause I’m a dead doll, sitting on a shelf
Waiting for a version of my former self
Paint on a smile while the porcelain cracks
Taking two steps forward, then a hundred-thousand back
I’m a dead doll, staring at the wall
Waiting for the ceiling or the sky to fall
Tell me what should I do?
When I’m stuck in this deep hole, feeling like a dead doll.

(Bridge)
I’m looking in the mirror, but the glass is hollow
I’m a bitter pill that I refuse to swallow
I try to move my hands, but the strings are tied
There’s a party in the streets, but I’m empty inside
Yeah, I’m empty inside...
Just a shell with a name, and a heart that’s gone quiet.

(Chorus)
'Cause I’m a dead doll, sitting on a shelf
Waiting for a version of my former self
Paint on a smile while the porcelain cracks
Taking two steps forward, then a hundred-thousand back
I’m a dead doll, staring at the wall
Waiting for the ceiling or the sky to fall

(Outro)
Am I awake? (I don't know)
Or just dreaming? (Maybe both)
The moon is still there, and I’m still freezing.
Tick-tock... time is dust.
Just another year lost...
Just another doll... gathering rust.

75 BPM, Lo-Fi / Emo-Rap, Slow, Moody, Reverb-Heavy Electric Guitar, Vinyl Crackle in Background, Minimal Kick Drum, Male