I Wished I Loved You

(Verse 1)

I wished I love you even if I knew I won't

I made you like me... shawty I know my wrong

When you told me how you feel

I found out that I lost a friend

You were the only one who was there for me

When I tripped in the mud and was too blind to see

You swore I'll be alright...

Even if my demons were hard to fight

(Verse 2)

I kinda miss you but I never text

Never been with you but feels like you're my ex

Drugs were my life and sex my escape

The mug shared my nights when it was hard to fake my smile

But I don't say that I was right

That I was right...

(Chorus)

Tell me what to do when you lost a friend

By being you on that substance

Now sober up and I feel like shit

Cause I know what's next after this sip

I traded the drugs for a cup

I bet my life... wish me luck

(Verse 3)

I’m staring at the read receipt from months ago

Afraid to say I'm sorry ‘cause I’m scared to know

If you’re doing better now that I’m not in the way

Or if you still remember all the things I used to say

When the pills spoke for me, and the ego was loud

Now I’m walking through the silence, just another face in the crowd

You wanted a lover, I just wanted a ghost

I ended up hurting the one who loved me the most

(Chorus)

Tell me what to do when you lost a friend

By being you on that substance

Now sober up and I feel like shit

Cause I know what's next after this sip

I traded the drugs for a cup

I bet my life... wish me luck

(Outro)

Yeah, I bet it all on a hollow hand

Built our friendship on shifting sand

Now the mud is dry, but I still can’t see

Why I chose the poison over you and me

(Over you and me...)

I wished I loved you...

But I’m just waking up.