Afraid to die

First off to whom it may concern

I'm tripping with the homies waiting for my turn

In the mean time she don't want to be mine

I don't know what to do with my free time

See i hate to say it don't know who to tell

The more I try to get up I always fell

Like my heart fail I refuse to go to dark hell

I'm tired of being the loser but I seem to play the part well

Slowly but surely I'm a find my place

All I went through I never lost my faith

My fate it's always been in God's hands

I'm trying to get even all this time I've been the odd man

All alone I just needed someone to be there

Much love family Ojeda showing me that someone really cares

I'm aware I'm so blessed I see that now

Nevertheless it's so hard to get up when you been so down

For now I'm trying to get by

God give me strength because I got shit piled this high

I get high it puts me in another set of mind

If not depression I tend to find

Thinking about death I ain't going to lie

Taking my last breath yes I'm not afraid to die