Sad

I don't want to cry but I feel so alone. There has to be more in life then this . I need to take better care of me. I miss my best friend he grew wings and went home . He was always there for me . He knew when hurting. We were connected soul to soul we felt each other all the time . He was my best friend and my brother.

So much in my life has changed. I've lost so much feels like a nightmare. I know he's watching down on me and proud . Maybe a little worried. I miss you brother. I feel so broken sad and lost. I need real love .it's been a very long time. I wish to have something worth taking the risk on . Depression is setting in I don't want to go to that dark place. Please lord help me be okay .