[Verse 1]
I carry ghosts from back when I was breaking everything I touched
Nights that left me hollow, chasing highs that hurt too much
I swear I’ve changed the locks, told the darkness it can’t stay
But old habits whisper low, pull me back the same old way
[Pre-Chorus]
I want the light, I want the clean, I want to leave it all behind
But when the quiet hits, the pull gets strong, and reason fades from mind
[Chorus]
I’m drowning in these waves again, crashing on the shore
Bad past calling out my name, dragging me once more
I fight to break the surface, reach for something new
But the undertow remembers every stupid thing I do
Drowning mind, drowning mind—help me make it through
(Through… through…)
[Verse 2]
I built a better version, piece by piece on shaky ground
Promised myself no more circles, no more falling down
Yet here I stand at midnight, bottle in my shaking hand
One more slip won’t kill me—or so the liar says again
[Pre-Chorus]
I hate the mirror staring back, the one who knows the truth
But tomorrow I’ll try harder, claw my way back to the proof
[Chorus]
I’m drowning in these waves again, crashing on the shore
Bad past calling out my name, dragging me once more
I fight to break the surface, reach for something new
But the undertow remembers every stupid thing I do
Drowning mind, drowning mind—help me make it through
(Through… through…)
[Bridge]
Maybe one day I’ll outrun the echoes of who I used to be
Find the strength to cut the rope, set the old me free
If I keep on swimming upward, even when it burns like hell
There might be air worth breathing on the other side as well
[Final Chorus]
I’m drowning in these waves, but I’m not giving in
Bad past tries to claim me, but I won’t let it win
I reach up for tomorrow, claw through every sin
Rising slow, rising slow—gonna let the healing in
(Let it in… let it in…)
C_Ronin
