Haunted Waves

I carry ghosts from back when I was breaking everything I touched

Nights that left me hollow, chasing highs that hurt too much

I swear I’ve changed the locks, told the darkness it can’t stay

But old habits whisper low, pull me back the same old way

I want the light, I want the clean, I want to leave it all behind

But when the quiet hits, the pull gets strong, and reason fades from mind

I’m drowning in these waves again, crashing on the shore

Bad past calling out my name, dragging me once more

I fight to break the surface, reach for something new

But the undertow remembers every stupid thing I do

Drowning mind, drowning mind—help me make it through

(Through… through…)

I built a better version, piece by piece on shaky ground

Promised myself no more circles, no more falling down

Yet here I stand at midnight, bottle in my shaking hand

One more slip won’t kill me—or so the liar says again

I hate the mirror staring back, the one who knows the truth

But tomorrow I’ll try harder, claw my way back to the proof

I’m drowning in these waves again, crashing on the shore

Bad past calling out my name, dragging me once more

I fight to break the surface, reach for something new

But the undertow remembers every stupid thing I do

Drowning mind, drowning mind—help me make it through

(Through… through…)

Maybe one day I’ll outrun the echoes of who I used to be

Find the strength to cut the rope, set the old me free

If I keep on swimming upward, even when it burns like hell

There might be air worth breathing on the other side as well

I’m drowning in these waves, but I’m not giving in

Bad past tries to claim me, but I won’t let it win

I reach up for tomorrow, claw through every sin

Rising slow, rising slow—gonna let the healing in

(Let it in… let it in…)