So tired
Noone gets it
Don't want to show it
I'll get rejected
So I deflect it
& Try to protect it
& try not project it
All I wanna do is be myself the way I do,
The way I invented
I wanna grow & get rid of the old
Sins from my past done! Moving on
I relented
I repented
Start again, my integrity full send
Cos I'm the prize my life's the incentive
Change my whole perspective
Just real me no more people pleaser disguise I used to be a version of me
just trying to be liked
Go on and say whatever you wanna say
It's okay cos I know it's not me, it's your shit when you accuse me of whatever
Not me or my shit from your perception of the matter
It's you who needs to get your shit together
Or, fuck,
Just stay in the dark forever!
Got on,
Attack
And keep saying you're the defender
But remember
Everything must come to an ending
Some day you'll eventually have to stop pretending
How does that feel?
Knowing theres only 2 roads
1 is change or 2 stay in your old place
In your dark space
That struggles everyday
Wants to punch everyone in the face
Choose 1 - here
Cut or just copy & paste
Cos old you is the you
Your demons want you
To stick too
In most cases that's what people do
Stay in their old way
Its easier to navigate
In a world that throws so much hate
To anyone who tries hard to elevate
They say you can't change it's too late
But they only say that
cos for them it wasn't all that
They couldn't do it, they failed
& then bailed
Now they project to silence that failure mind state
Ooohhhh yea! Do you see how that shit rotates??
Right infront of their eyes, see, there's no way
They dont see it now, for themselves
Fully!
Ok yea we all have a dark side
& it's fucken hard to own in it's own right
Then to swallow your pride
& Tell the truth that you sometimes lied
You were just trying to survive.
So forget that person now, it wasnt really you
Well it was but it wasn't .. you know the real you
Not the you fear takes over & auto pilot
Navigates its way through
Choose different you can.. its time to
Time to be uncomfortable
For now only
Cos at least on the road to
Becoming the full me
I know id reach
Some peace
& finally be free
In my
Authentic personality