They say...

They say

Eventually,

everyone leaves me

Doesn't need me

Will end up

Abandoning me

Leave me lonely

Left with only

Thoughts of insanity

Self profanity

I'm a freak

Too unique

And that's why, probably

noones keen to hangout or call

Or come see me

No texts noone randomly

Shows up to say... "hey girl, how you been?"

Its like noone likes me

But they don't know me

So blow me

Haters always bite me

Leaves me wondering

Am I actually

Exactly what they say to me

Or

Am I mirroring

Are they projecting

Maybe I'm denying

I'm lying

To myself to them ... I'm not trying

But seriously

Tell me

I wanna know why I'm always here feeling lonely

Or show me

What did I do that makes you ignore me

After you tell me you adore me

Tell me

say it to my face honestly

I can take it, you'll see

I mean it if you just say it fully

From a place of love and not when you're angry at me

Don't yell at me..

Talk

Calmly

And softly

Who cares what they say about me..

Fuck off already

Nope you lost me

Now you took their words over me

Go one just go just leave

since you're going to leave me eventually

See...

that's what I said at the beginning

See what did I say, there's no winning,

There's no option that sees you grinning

It's always you who loses everutime in the last inning

So

Trust me, it's better off to be

Alone than with someone and still feel lonely

Cos at least

the first one means

That you're free to be whoever you want and do whatever you wanna do fully.

Haha BOOM!

That's why, actually

Go be a freak or weird cos that's exactly

What will.make you happy

Fuck yes now i see

This whole time I could have been free

To be

Authentically me

I could make it way more fun

And at least this way I didn't become

Just another one

Of those generic Jane's

It's actually shit being one of the ones who breaks chains

And also has brains

Does things a little strange

That's the reason I'm here alone cos they don't like change

Fuck yous then anyway

Guess that means ill just have to find a way

To suck it up and accept I may

End up just me, on my own - alone each day

Yup .. that's the kick

Either be Alone and pick

To be truly me or be a dick

And have friends, my own clique

But actual, straight up, I'd rather not

Have to deal with he said she said shit the lot

It's not worth my sanity I don't give a fuck if that's hot or not

Or if I lost my shot

At being your bestie on tik tok

I'm pretty good by myself over here

Least this way I don't have to share

My gin or whisky or wine or beer

Fuck, more for me

Aw let me shed a tear

Wow ya know what else they say everywhere,

That life is short and it is what it is

So Murphys law and irony can give my ass a little kiss

I know for sure Karma has my back in all this

I just gotta mind my own business

And live

And play,

Laugh, Dance, cry and grow old and Grey.

& maybe thats actually why that's the thing "they say"

I get it now - haha okay - thank fuck that eventually everyone will leave me some day.

Might get some peace fucken yay