I Survived My Own Silence”
Intro (spoken, trembling)
Chiiiiiiiiii…
Na wa—ooooooooo…
Jesus Christ…
If you know… you know.
This one no be song.
Na testimony.
Verse 1
I been smiling for pictures, dying inside,
Carrying storms where nobody could look or find.
They say “you strong,” but strength get breaking point,
I been screaming in my head, voice no get joint.
Every night I talk to ceiling, not to man,
Asking God why survival feel like punishment plan.
I stayed quiet so I don’t scare the kids,
But my mind been places nobody ever lives.
Chiiiiiiiiii…
Na wa—ooooooooo…
Pre-Chorus
If pain get sound, mine go shake the room,
If tears fit talk, dem go tell the truth.
I learned how to breathe while I’m drowning slow,
Jesus Christ… you know.
Chorus
Jesus Christ, I almost lost my way,
I was standing in light but living in gray.
Na wa—ooooooooo… the weight I carried alone,
Smiling for the world, bleeding in bone.
Chiiiiiiiiii… I no die, I endure,
I survived my silence, that one for sure.
Jesus Christ… I’m still here, still whole,
Even when life tried to bury my soul.
Verse 2
I held people together with broken hands,
Fixed everybody else while I couldn’t stand.
I swallowed my anger, folded my pride,
Turned my trauma into somewhere to hide.
I wanted peace, not noise, not war,
But they kept pushing like they wanted more.
They never saw the nights I begged to stay,
Only the days I showed up anyway.
Na wa—ooooooooo…
Chiiiiiiiiii
Pre-Chorus 2
If love was fair, I’d be resting by now,
If life was honest, it’d slow me down.
But I kept walking with a cracked chest,
Jesus Christ… you saw the mess.
Chorus
Jesus Christ, I almost lost my way,
I was standing in light but living in gray.
Na wa—ooooooooo… the weight I carried alone,
Smiling for the world, bleeding in bone.
Chiiiiiiiiii… I no die, I endure,
I survived my silence, that one for sure.
Jesus Christ… I’m still here, still whole,
Even when life tried to bury my soul.
Bridge (spoken / cried)
There was a moment…
One moment…
If not for my children…
Chiiiiiiiiii…
I don’t even want to finish that thought.
Jesus Christ…
You pulled me back when nobody knew I was falling.
Na wa—ooooooooo…
Verse 3
I’m not angry, I’m aware,
I know who stayed, I know who cared.
I forgive but I don’t forget the cost,
Some lessons only come when you’re almost lost.
I’m softer now but harder to break,
I know my worth, I know what I take.
I don’t need applause, I don’t need crown,
I just need peace when the noise dies down.
Chiiiiiiiiii…
Na wa—ooooooooo…
Final Chorus (lifted, victorious)
Jesus Christ, look where I stand,
Still breathing, still built by your hand.
Na wa—ooooooooo… what I walked through alive,
They buried the seed—but I rise.
Chiiiiiiiiii… this pain turned to proof,
My scars tell stories, all of them true.
Jesus Christ… I bow, I confess,
I didn’t break—I survived the test.
Outro (whispered)
If you hear this and your chest feel tight…
You’re not weak.
You’re still here.
Chiiiiiiiiii…
Na wa—ooooooooo…
Jesus Christ… thank you.
