These dayz I dunno wut I'm doin.Where I park my home is where I stay for the time being... that is to say its where I live temporarily probably let's definitely so I try to stay upbeat and appreciate what I have and think about where I'd be without the assistance of my family and the friends that I have or don't have around. There was once a time, now a very long time ago where I thought I was getting on track but somehow, well if think hard it's not hard to figure out when and where it fell apart. I never wanna except responsibility for the dumbshit wayz that I never take things seriously. But if I did then I'd probably be depressed and shit, or in some place with someone doing something that ain't me. Pretending to play the tough guy hoping that nobody would see me for the anxious anxiety rittled individual I can be but not even hearing these voices could really upend me. Always offending me so I yell and scream at the walls and make people around me question my sanity but when they look closer I don't if anyone could would or even should try to figure me out. I'm a weird guy and I know it, get great opportunities and blow it. I do my to show how much I can do but it seems that opinions were formed along the way that portray me as a incompetent individual who isn't capable. But I know it's not the truth. It is true that laziness as it's known is in me and it wants me to stay indoors and watch TV and movies play video games and to much pornography. But everything in moderation is OK and just because you don't agree dosnt make a difference as long as you work or do something to pay your own way and stay somehow employed and it ain't easy to keep up the pace in the face of younger people with more energy who can run circles around me but they're strengths end there so keep running cause while your jogging ill finishing up the work you left behind when the 5:00pm alarm says you can go home but the problems not in my strength cause I'm strong yes my speed my peter off at times but if I'm not distracted by issues like personal conflict or teen drama around me then I'll make it with flying colors but when asked to take a position and be charge by and large I'm not geared for it. I got patience in alot of things like waiting in line at the pharmacy the grocery store and the DMV. Hell even on the phone with D.S.H.S. which is were ill be permanently if I can't get a grip on the shitty non stop yapping and yammering of the imbasilic voices that complain and are always talking shit to me acting tough in the fake voices and if they're not they should be cause if they there intimidating with there quasi sexy always crying sounding fake laugh surrounding me with the raspiness that'll have you scratching your head like what the fuck? Fake girlfriend and mom scenarios, think they're scary but mainly just easily predictable jokes and directions in the conversation that I coulda just had with myself. Nothing new to enlighten nothing profound or make clear the rea
