(Intro)
Yeah...
Rain sliding down the windshield...
Some monsters don't kick the door in...
They learn your name... then move into your reflection.
(Verse 1)
Red clay sticking to the side of my boots,
Another long night chasing ugly truths.
She asked where I'd been—I looked her in the eyes,
Said, "Everything's alright," wrapped inside another lie.
I hate the sound of my own voice now,
Every promise feels like smoke somehow.
I swore this time I'd finally change,
But the old me always knows my name.
She don't deserve these sleepless nights,
Wondering if she's wrong or if I'm right.
Truth is... she's been fighting ghosts,
And I'm the one that brought 'em home.
(Hook)
I'm a prisoner of habits I built with my own hands,
Watching everything I love sink into the sand.
I say "never again"... then I fall the same way,
Running from tomorrow while repeating yesterday.
Every lie gets easier... every truth gets harder,
Every mile I drift... puts her farther.
I ain't proud of the man staring back at me...
But breaking old chains feels like breaking free.
(Verse 2)
Daddy never talked, just buried it deep,
Taught me pain was something real men keep.
So I learned to hide behind a crooked grin,
Never fixed the hurt... just painted over it.
She says, "Talk to me," but I shut down cold,
Like silence was worth more than a heart of gold.
I built these walls one brick at a time,
Now I'm trapped inside what I designed.
She still reaches when I'm falling away,
Still believes what I stopped trying to save.
I wonder how she's held on this long...
To a man who keeps proving her faith is wrong.
(Bridge)
It ain't that I wake up wanting to destroy us...
It's that destruction became familiar.
When you've lived in darkness long enough...
Light starts feeling like something you don't deserve.
(Verse 3)
Thunder rolls over these county roads,
Same sky... same heavy load.
Mirror in the truck won't let me hide,
Every crack in my soul staring back inside.
She deserves a man whose words mean more,
Not another excuse walking through the door.
Someone who stays when the hard days come,
Instead of running every time his demons run.
I keep saying love should be enough,
But love can't heal what I refuse to touch.
If I don't face what's living in me,
I'll keep becoming who I never meant to be.
So tonight I ain't asking her to understand,
Or begging for one more second chance.
I'm finally looking my reflection in the eyes...
Calling every lie exactly what it is.
(Outro)
Some people lose the ones they love in a single night...
Some lose them one small lie at a time.
I don't fear the storm outside anymore...
I fear becoming so comfortable with the darkness...
...that I forget I was ever trying to find the light.
HbKeed
