[Intro]
Ash in my lungs
Blood on my teeth
Thought I was done
Now look at me (look at me)
[Verse 1]
Brown bottle on the nightstand
Blue pills on the floor by my feet
One text, "I love you, answer"
I just stared at the screen, couldn’t speak
Shaking in a quiet kitchen
Clock ticking louder than my heart
Face down in the dirty sink water
Whispered, "Maybe I’ve gone too far"
Doctor said, "You’re running on fumes"
Mama said, "I’m praying for you"
Homies said, "Man, pour up the pain"
So I did till I blacked out the truth
Woke up with dried blood on my shirt
Voicemail from my sis, she cried
I was two more shots from a hearse
Two more steps from the other side
[Chorus]
I was one more drink from the grave
One more line from the end
One more jump off the ledge
Yeah, I almost lost my breath
But I clawed my way out that grave
Wiped that dust off my chest
Turned my scars into checks
Now I’m too alive to forget (too alive)
[Verse 2]
Panic in my chest like a kick drum
Can’t breathe, can’t sit, just pace
Sweat through another job interview
Lied, "I’m fine," with a twitch in my face
Nightmares in the bright daylight
Dark thoughts in a crowded room
Smiled for the pic with my coworkers
Then cried in the bathroom stall at noon
Therapist asking me questions
I’m laughing, but the laugh sounds wrong
Told her ‘bout the rope and the chair
How close I came to being gone
She said, "Name one thing worth staying"
I said, "My lil niece, her smile"
She said, "Cool, that’s your first brick, kid"
Built a whole damn future on that tile
[Chorus]
I was one more drink from the grave
One more line from the end
One more jump off the ledge
Yeah, I almost lost my breath
But I clawed my way out that grave
Wiped that dust off my chest
Turned my scars into checks
Now I’m too alive to forget (too alive)
[Bridge]
Now it’s early runs, late nights, clean mind
Turned my demons into deadlines
Every flashback just a headline
"Kid almost died, came back to grind" (came back to grind)
Every bar I spit, that’s proof
Every bill I pay, that’s truth
Every hug from fam, that’s proof
I ain’t wasting this new youth
[Chorus]
I was one more drink from the grave
One more line from the end
One more jump off the ledge
Yeah, I almost lost my breath
But I clawed my way out that grave
Wiped that dust off my chest
Turned my scars into checks
Now I’m too alive to forget (too alive, yeah)