[Intro]
God, don't you think we should talk?
I'm having trouble knowing if you're really listening at all
If there's a hell, you might as well mark a spot for my soul
If there's a god, I'm sorry for I won't pass the gates
I'm not quite sure if I deserve to wake up
I want to sleep forever if it means never looking in the mirror
[Verse 1]
God, I been talking into silence like it’s answering me back
Like the walls got ears but they don’t know how to react
I’m pacing through my mind where the floorboards crack
Every step feels like a memory I can’t get back
I tried to build a version of me that don’t collapse
But I’m nails in drywall, I’m bending under that
You call it growth, I call it slipping through the map
Like I’m somewhere in between who I am and who I lack
I seen hope in the distance but it flickers when I run
Like it knows I’m tired, like it knows I’m almost done
And I laugh at myself like I’m chasing the sun
With a storm in my lungs and a silence on my tongue
If I’m made in your image then why do I feel torn?
Like something got erased the day that I was born
I don’t ask for perfect, I just ask for a form
That don’t fall apart every time it gets worn
[Chorus]
I'm so sick of feeling like I am a hollow shell
Of the one that I know so well
We all seem to show our true colors mean the most
Only when we're seconds from a grave unmarked
[Verse 2]
Son, I hear you in the static of your doubt and your fear
Every crack in your voice is something I still hear
You think I left you stranded in the thick of it here
But I’m closer than the breath that disappears in your tears
I don’t build you to break, I build you to withstand
Even when your own reflection don’t understand
Every step in the dark still leaves a hand
That’s guiding you through what you can’t command
You keep calling it failure, I call it the climb
You think you’re out of time, I say you’re right on time
Even when your thoughts feel like war in your mind
There’s a reason you’re still here, still alive in design
I don’t speak in thunder, I speak in the slow
In the quiet moments where you don’t even know
That the soil you’re buried in is starting to grow
Something stronger than the weight you’ve been told
[Chorus]
I'm so sick of feeling like I am a hollow shell
Of the one that I know so well
We all seem to show our true colors mean the most
Only when we're seconds from a grave unmarked
[Verse 3]
I stare at the mirror but it don’t feel like mine
Like it’s showing a stranger wearing my outline
Every smile I fake feels like borrowed design
Like I stitched it together just to pass the time
I been chasing meaning in the wrong damn place
In the back of my mind where it leaves no trace
I speak in questions with no answer to face
Just echoes of a life I can’t erase
And I swear I can feel it when I almost escape
Like the edge of the world got my name in its shape
But something keeps pulling me back into weight
Like I’m meant to carry what I tried to break
So I walk through the fire just to feel th
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