BLACKOUT HALO

Yeah, I joke around, keep things easy

Make everybody laugh like being okay comes easy

Whole room loud, I’m joining in too

Nobody notices when my smile ain’t true

I don’t wanna be heavy when everyone’s good

So I say what I should and not what I would

Keep things moving, don’t make it a thing

Then deal with it later when it all sinks in

Blackout halo… hiding in plain sight

Doing my best just to get through the night

Look okay in the glow of the room

Fall apart slow when I’m back in my room

Blackout halo… nobody can tell

How hard it gets trying to act like yourself

I keep it together till nobody’s there

Then sit with the thoughts I don’t know how to share

Got good people round me, I know that’s true

If I really said something, they’d probably come through

But turning thoughts into words ain’t easy to do

When you’ve been saying “I’m alright” so long it feels true

It’s not that nobody cares, I know they do

I just don’t know how to hand somebody this truth

How do you say “I’m not okay” when you don’t know why?

When you can’t even explain what’s going on inside

So you keep being yourself… or the version they know

Keep the laugh, keep the smile, keep the problems low

Hoping somebody understands without you saying a thing

Cause asking for help feels harder than anything

Maybe somebody else hears this and gets it

Knows what it’s like tryna hide what you’re carrying with you

Not looking for pity, not trying to be saved

Just tired of pretending that everything’s okay

Cause sometimes the hardest words don’t come out loud

They sit in your chest where nobody looks now

And you tell yourself “tomorrow… maybe then”

But tomorrow turns into “not again”

Blackout halo… hiding in plain sight

Smiling with everybody, fighting a different fight

People do care… that’s the part that hurts

When you wanna reach out but can’t find the words

Blackout halo… maybe you know it too

Being surrounded by love but still feeling hard to read through

If you’ve been keeping it in ‘cause you don’t know where to start…

Yeah… you’re not the only one carrying that dark.