My Father by MBMEASMER - Zona

My Father by MBMEASMER - Zona

Lyrics

Just in case you ever wondered.

I grew up strong.

Stronger than I think you ever were.

Strong enough to hide my pain most days.

Strong enough to admit when I’ve been wrong

To the man who gave me my name.

I don’t know where you are now.

I don’t know if I ever made you proud.

I hate to admit you cross my mind.

I hate I give your thought any time.

I was a kid when you walked away the first time.

But I was wiser and older the second round.

I spent so long wondering what I did wrong.

And I’m good man if you never get found.

I made promises to mom and to you.

Promises I know you never knew.

I promised that my child would never feel the same.

They wouldn’t have to worry about that pain.

Never once would they wonder where daddy was.

They would never grow up wonderin if they were enough.

I would never turn out like my father was.

To the man who gave me my name.

I don’t know where you are now.

I don’t know if I ever made you proud.

I hate to admit you cross my mind.

I hate I give your thought any time.

I was a kid when you walked away the first time.

But I was wiser and older the second round.

I spent so long wondering what I did wrong.

And I’m good man if you never get found.

You know I even thought about changing my name.

Thought that what I carried was a badge of shame.

But I turned all that around.

To hell with you I made momma proud.

There is so little I have to thank you for.

Except the memories of waiting for you a child sitting by the door.

And I can’t say I ever learned one thing from you.

And as much as I hate to admit it.

Thanks to this mess I guess you could call it genetics.

I’ve heard your where I get my love of music

And use it to express my truth.

Did you know I hold my guitar the same stance as you.

To the man who gave me my name.

I don’t know where you are now.

I don’t know if I ever made you proud.

I hate to admit you cross my mind.

I hate I give your thought any time.

I was a kid when you walked away the first time.

But I was wiser and older the second round.

I spent so long wondering what I did wrong.

And I’m good man if you never get found.

Here’s another thing you never knew.

Not that you care but I had a child too.

My chance to prove I was better than you.

But she was called home for reasons God only knew.

As I sat there with so much pain.

Where were you.

Why couldn’t you be the father I needed you to.

And why do I care after all of these years.

I’ll not shed one single tear.

Because turning out like you would be my biggest fear.