yea i work up this moring with a voice in my head can't stop the bleeding i think i'm just about dead! she told me she hate who i've become drinking out the botttle i'm just obviously numb everthing we had has falling apart i ask myself i should have seen this coming from the start now my life has never been this bad can't even love myself again cause i feel way too sad
(i hate this! that i love you u! it's over! so fuck u)
why do i go all this pain you fuck me up and i feel a shame rather lose my memory so i dont remember your name! everthing we had was more like a joke u said i'll be yours forever and u lied so i choke and i stay quiet all time and you can't even think off us and put it in the back for your mind love has no purpose in this world anymore i broke down crying with all these love scars let me ask u this how is it rigth foe me too do wrong still think about you ever though you moved on you said i would be your ride or die thats bullshit too me cause i can see it in ypur eyes just remember when u were at your lows i was there when u felt hopeless i was the one too care i guess you board of me 24/7 if i die from this heartbreake will i go too heaven! or should i go to hell i guess this love with kill me deep only time will tell let me said this much more i wanted to marry u one day beause i felt like you meet the most now i can't say we will ever be close! back then i love u more then u think! now heart just sink too the bottom earth so i hope your happy cause i can never be again thought of a another woman probably just hurt me ones again play with my emotions till the end i'm look back at time when u were happy wirh me holding your hand u were my lover significan other and i was blessed too have u as my one and only woman that was my queen but is all gone cause it was just a dream when i get up i cry and i scream how could this be reality what could i have done better she didn't respond too my texts i miss her tho because she was the ex girlfriend tnat made me happy but now i'm hopeless in my mind beause true will never be that same i have too live with the guilt toxic enengy is now all i see i can't be myself! i feel like my whole body been at its lows i just feel hopeless i don't care anymore too the poit of depressin my is going thow a angry obsession i destroy it from now till then i can't bear this pain again so good luck too anyone who can find love me it will never be enough
