On my chest……..

This heavy S that’s on my chest

Hate when we get together cuz I know that I’m the best

No matter what they think…..

No matter what they say…..

I’ll never let them sink……..

But I still steer the ship my way

Cuz if I don’t-it’s over in a blink

And all my efforts go to waste

How many times now?

Did I tell myself that I’m the problem?

What did I find out?

I learned to stop escaping all my problems…..

How to solve em,

How to fix my own mistakes and not to call you……

I gotta therapist for venting…..

Working through my traumas a lil different…..

Got another bitch…….

But I only see her when I close the distance…..

I’ll be damned……

If ima introduce another weakness to my fam….

And I if can…..

I’ll bring out everybody……

Right now I gotta plan……..

But if you feel entitled to my blessings?

….You can Scram…

I’ll understand….

I know I got some much weighing on me

I know,…..I’m just a man……

I seen some bad days…..

I couldn’t heal my pain without a bandaid

The good ones?

They only made it worse….

It didn’t hurt….

But somehow I felt a little better in the storms

I know it’s crazy…..

But tell me who can judge me for my normal?

The violence and the outbursts….

Me-always leaving out first?

The fact that I ain’t been the same since my happiness got outsourced?

Tell me who’s to blame?……..

I said, tell me I’m the blame….

Tell me that I’m weird or better yet just tell me that I’m strange….

That I’m the danger………

That im the one that’s dimming all your flames…..

I’m the same guy that always opts to running from his name….

Bottles his pain……..

Stagnant in his lane……

Shutting everybody out and falling into shame……

Somehow it never registers, the story’s still the same……..