What is the use for this pain. Making music to help deal with it. No matter what I do I can't heal waking up to find your not there. I feel my world falling apart. Not having my sunlight is unreal I am in the dark ages. Filling pages trying to escape the clouds. You left behind prisoner of my own mind. Struggling to catch my breath. I act like I didn't get depressed when we were over. Beneath the surface I was such a mess. Us ending is the source of the heart break. I just remind myself how you looked at the lake with the setting sun. Been taking my time to forget I really want to let you go but my heart won't. Drinking to ease my mind and numb this pain. Remain sane I don't know how I will remain sane. What is the use for this pain. Making music to help deal with it. I am losing my mind without you in my life. The light to my dark fighting myself to let you go. I just want another sun rise and sun set with you. What is there to do to not think about what I lost. Staring at the stars drinking but no matter what I try I can't drown these scars. We were far from perfect we just made sense. Since you been gone I can't tell up from down. I have been hell bent trying to get you back. Need that sweet smile back in my life. Now misery just eats away at me. All for a fantasy I made up in my head. Now I feel like the future is dead. How you just gave us up. Torture its just torture knowing we won't have a future. Working on getting to see you again because part of me is dead. I just left my heart with you. You are one of a very few there is not a lot of your kind. Why did I have to lose you. Whiskey wishing I could just get rid of your memory. Fighting violently to not lose it but I am losin. This hell of not hearing your voice has me livin in the top shelf. Whiskey or bourbon is the only choice I have the will to make. Feelin like our love was a urban legend. With your shadow haunting me. We didn't have the fairytale ending like I wanted to. Saying goodbye to a good life that is what we both could have had. But you decided to close the book on us. Here I am with a heart crying out for a lie. Oh I don't think I can ease the pain. I use the ink to ease my mind. Hopin I am just hopin I won't stay broken.
Brandon_Garcia
