Hopeless

Up and down, left and right, good days with terrors through the night.

Back and forth, in and out, feeling down so I have my doubts.

Sometimes I feel that life isn’t real.

Sometimes I feel I shoulda down all my pills.

Feeling hopeless most of the time, it’s taking a toll on me but I’ll be fine.

I am depressed but they hesitate to put me on antidepressants.

Some notice that I’m trying but losing my interest.

Losing all focus like my life isn’t even important.

Trying to stay ambitious but sometimes I’m just discordant.

I feel so hopeless deep inside.

Sitting wasting my days, in the basement I hide.

To the people who are worried, I’ll tell you I’m fine.

I just need to find meaning in my life.

At this time it’s hard to find meaning that I can call mine before I run out of time.

Drugs took away my joy and ability.

All those things I would put through my body.

Blowing through it so fast I’m wasting money.

Most of the time I was alone, no company.

Laying wide awake at night.

Thinking about all of those times I was a drugged out of my mind.

I’m so sorry about my lies.

Yeh responsibility was a big price.

Up and down, left and right, good days with terrors through the night.

Back and forth, in and out, feeling down so I have my doubts.

Sometimes I feel that life isn’t real.

Sometimes I feel I shoulda down all my pills.

Feeling hopeless most of the time, it’s taking a toll on me but I’ll be fine.

I am depressed but they hesitate to put me on antidepressants.

Some notice that I’m trying but losing my interest.

Losing all focus like my life isn’t even important.

Trying to stay ambitious but sometimes I’m just discordant.

Staying focused, of course it’s important.

Staying ambitious, the drugs ain’t nutritious.

Being realistic, trying to stay serious.

Outright delirious, my mind isn’t like it was.

(I’ll do the best I can to stay positive and optimistic but times feel wasteful right now.

I will push out the negative that destroys the way I think)

Sometimes I feel that life isn’t real at all.

Sometimes I feel I shoulda down all my pills with alcohol.

Feeling hopeless most of the time, it’s taking a toll on me but I’ll be fine.

I am depressed but they hesitate to put me on antidepressants.

Some notice that I’m trying but losing my interest.

Losing all focus like my life isn’t even important.

Trying to stay ambitious but sometimes I’m just discordant.