Falling in reality

Everything is upside down i falling  down but landing on the right side on the ground what is different time can i found my foundation i am lost looking for my life line but can't found it ,it was destroyed i can't found my foundation it gone i don't know when Everything whent wrong , now i am left alone lost no place to be no more foundation i am  breaking one piece by piece what kind of picture will be left can i found something fixing what can't be fixed any more found i new life line
Lost without a life line or foundation falling in in air upside down where is the ground falling in dimension falling losing pieces of my self who i used to be and what i used to find comfort in gone destroyed falling through the void lost no to or to be lost or free
Will i move forward will i found freedom at least who will i be i will become my own foundation i will create my own life line i will be the designer of my own reality
I fear getting hurt i fear discontent i fear being controlled i fear my desire to destroyed everything that destroyed me ,but want lose control, i am in control of this new reality won't let it be destroyed i  wont let my freedom of my own it won't be destroyed 
Why do i feel so alone when didn't start walking alone i love my freedom and reality but i feel lost missing something long gone i don't remember any more
Where is my foundation my life line where are the pieces that i lost what did the picture look like can't  it be fixed any more what have i lost i don't know who i am any more 
I have dreams 
Of a future 
But
Was okay to lose my past
 Somewhere inside my self i know that the pices remains my foundation is something i carries where ever i go i am never truly lost

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